Happy Chaos

This past weekend I watched Cameron and Alanna, while their parents enjoyed Sheryl's birthday weekend. We had a great action packed weekend.

We went to the Commissary and bought junk food, then went to the library to get movies. We changed into pajamas at 6 pm and watched movies all night long. We also ate ice cream in the middle of the day and pizza at night.

Cameron was asleep on the couch by 9 pm, but Alanna the night owl was up until 11pm when I made her go to sleep. They slept in my bed and I was on the floor. Last time they stayed with me, we all slept in my bed. They are like sleeping with a pack of wolves, so I opted for the floor. At 5 am they were up again...

We got up, and made a pineapple upside down cake or as Alanna would say an upside down pineapple cake. She also made a throne for her mom and decorated my eliptical. My workout was interesting with all the lacing cards hanging there. I love the happy chaos they make. (mess).

"Chaos in the world brings uneasiness, but it also allows the opportunity for creativity and growth."
Tom Barrett

What I want...

In life we all have a list of things we want, I think this list gets longer as all our "needs" are met. In human nature people tend to want more as the have more. The "better" or more a person has the more "things" become tangible and within their reach, the more they believe they "want/need" it. This of course is not true to all, yet in our materialistic society there is a lot of truth to it.

I am a very fortunate person, I am healthy, happy, have a good job, live in a nice house, have a wonderful family, supportive friends, I travel the world and do not go without.

I am changed from my time in Iraq. The biggest change is the way I live my life from day to day. I am forever thankful for those who fight for our country and am grateful for the opportunity to wake up everyday and follow my dreams. I have always been thankful, but now it runs even deeper in my being.

When I think about these things, there is one big thing missing. What I really want in this life is a family. I come from a wonderful, mom and dad, who although are not perfect, they have showed me that perfection has nothing to do with unconditional love. I am the person I am because of them and of course my sister too.

This weekend, I had a lingering fever, so, I just stayed home. I made crockpot chicken and rice soup and angel food cake with cherry compote topping. Weekends, like this I wish my house was bustling with noise and faces to feed. After all, you show love by feeding people, right? I learned that from my mom. :)

For now, I will just cook and freeze, take good care of myself and embrace what each new day gives me. I am blessed, thankful, and loved, which is wonderful!

"Intense love does not measure, it just gives."

~ Mother Theresa

Spa Day

This title is deceiving. When you think of Spa Day, you think of a nice day in a low lit room, with soft music, wine, and treatments.

Well my idea of a Spa Day did not have all the glitz, but I enjoyed myself. Last Monday was Labor Day, I got back from Munich late the night before, so, I slept in and created a Spa in my backyard.

Brows, pedicure and a cold beer were on the menu and the price was FREE. PERFECT.

“Humor is a whisper from the soul, imploring mind and body to relax, let go and be at peace again.” ~ UKN

Emotions

This picture to me, is one of the most powerful pictures from my deployment. I like to call this picture Emotions.

Pure raw emotions are powerful, smoothing, and unsettling all at the same time.

Look close, you will see a tear in my eye, which is a tear that carries both joy and pain. In the reflection of my glasses, you can see the window of the Humvee, I was riding in. The chicken pox scar on my right cheek has been there since I was little. The brim of my helmet. My button nose. The powerful orange of my glasses. The blue in my eyes. The layer of grease and sweat that was always present.

Like many emotions, hard to see, hidden inside this picture, lies feelings of; thankfulness, happiness, fulfillment, togetherness, belonging, pride, and hope.

Emotions are not always easy to deal with, but they make us who we are.

"Feelings are much like waves, we can't stop them from coming but we can choose which one to surf." ~Jonatan Mårtensson