In life we all have a list of things we want, I think this list gets longer as all our "needs" are met. In human nature people tend to want more as the have more. The "better" or more a person has the more "things" become tangible and within their reach, the more they believe they "want/need" it. This of course is not true to all, yet in our materialistic society there is a lot of truth to it.
I am a very fortunate person, I am healthy, happy, have a good job, live in a nice house, have a wonderful family, supportive friends, I travel the world and do not go without.
I am changed from my time in Iraq. The biggest change is the way I live my life from day to day. I am forever thankful for those who fight for our country and am grateful for the opportunity to wake up everyday and follow my dreams. I have always been thankful, but now it runs even deeper in my being.
When I think about these things, there is one big thing missing. What I really want in this life is a family. I come from a wonderful, mom and dad, who although are not perfect, they have showed me that perfection has nothing to do with unconditional love. I am the person I am because of them and of course my sister too.
This weekend, I had a lingering fever, so, I just stayed home. I made crockpot chicken and rice soup and angel food cake with cherry compote topping. Weekends, like this I wish my house was bustling with noise and faces to feed. After all, you show love by feeding people, right? I learned that from my mom. :)
For now, I will just cook and freeze, take good care of myself and embrace what each new day gives me. I am blessed, thankful, and loved, which is wonderful!
"Intense love does not measure, it just gives."
~ Mother Theresa
My dear, dear friend. Oh how I love you! I'm so thankful for your reflections, because they always cause me to stop and think. All the insanity in my work life right now has caused me to totally overlook caring for those closest to me. I look forward to Fall being a time to cozy in and build our new home here in Corvallis - because as Jack Johnson said "home is where ever you are, if there's love there too."
ReplyDeleteYou are such a kind, intelligent, generous, and loving woman. I too wish you had more people in your life to care for. I'm grateful that you know how to practice good self-care though.
I'm so glad to read your posts again. Thank you for sharing of yourself.
- CaSandra